Letting Go

It's 30th of October today. And by today I should have made my decision on whether or not to accept the HELP SASA Scholarship.

And I decided to let it go.

It wasn't an easy decision to make. Partly because of the uncertainty of the future and also the doubts of what will come my way. At least if I held on to this, my A-levels education is pretty much secured, half-way.

But I decided not to take the scholarship because firstly, I'm not even sure if HELP College is where I want to spend my next 1 and 1/2 years at and the idea of having my future pre-determined while I'm still going through my present doesn't settle too comfortably with me. Also, I'm looking out for better options and chances post-SPM so I wouldn't want to tie myself too early to something like this if there is indeed, something better for me out there.

With the year coming to an end, with my high school life reaching its final chapter and with everything else that has happened in between, there's a lot of letting-gos to do. It's not easy but it has to be done.

And God-willing, this is the right thing to let go off.

Sometimes, she's a fighter

She walked into the battlefield, determined to fight this war until she saw the end of it. Not because she had to. But because she wanted to. They deserved what was supposed to be given to them. And to take that away from them for some lame excuse, it's unjust and unacceptable.

And so she fought. Not with physical strength or metal swords. But with words and rationality. On what was the best thing to do as opposed to what fit her alone. Because she stood true to her ground, that 'she is a fighter and she fights for what she wants.'

As a mutual agreement had been reached, she walked away, a certain feeling of satisfaction and amour-propre took over her.

The fighter got what she wanted, finally.

Wholesome Saturday

Oh today was a full day. And for the first time in a long time, it wasn't about books and studying!

Had breakfast with Kamel, my mum's friend who's here from the States for her Raya break. And her sister, a strong force behind Tree Theatre Group, a youth NGO focusing on environmental issues was there too. I've seen them in action before, performing self-written songs about the Earth in Bangsar somewhere around this year and I was highly impressed by this group of young, talented teens.

So of course I was deeply honoured when Kak Lin enthusiastically offered me to join the group after my SPM. They'll be having an Eco Arts Festival in Melaka at the end of the year so that's where I'll be heading to when I'm done with SPM. Uh-huh I can barely wait! :)

Next on the agenda was the award ceremony for School Achiever Scholarship Awards (SASA) recipients at HELP UC. The ceremony itself was alright and I'm still tossing the idea of whether to accept the scholarship or not. It's a generous offer but I can't help but wonder about better opportunities out there besides this. Come 30th October, I'll let you know on my decision ya?

Oh and today my dad turned 48 years old. Happy birthday, Papa! Went on a shopping spree in KLCC (birthday gift from mum) and then a simple dinner at Mandarin Oriental. He's a great dad and I love him loads for that =D

So, I ended my busy Saturday with an unfamiliar satisfied feeling. Satisfied that I already have something planned right after SPM. Satisfied that my future is pretty much secured for now if I do accept the scholarship. Satisfied that I'm blessed with such great parents though there are times when they do get at each other's throats. Ahh, married life. You know what's that like.

Above all, Alhamdullilah.

P/S I don't know why is it some of the sentences are underlined and some are not. Pardon =\

L to R: Luke, Calvin, Rachel and I at SASA award ceremony (photo courtesy of Luke)

Mum with Kamel's daughter. Aaww isn't she just adorable?

Lady Boss

Shopping with the birthday man

He can sometimes shop even longer than most women. Uh huh

Birthday song on saxophone

Happy 48th Birthday, Papa! =)

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