It's 30th of October today. And by today I should have made my decision on whether or not to accept the HELP SASA Scholarship.
And I decided to let it go.
It wasn't an easy decision to make. Partly because of the uncertainty of the future and also the doubts of what will come my way. At least if I held on to this, my A-levels education is pretty much secured, half-way.
But I decided not to take the scholarship because firstly, I'm not even sure if HELP College is where I want to spend my next 1 and 1/2 years at and the idea of having my future pre-determined while I'm still going through my present doesn't settle too comfortably with me. Also, I'm looking out for better options and chances post-SPM so I wouldn't want to tie myself too early to something like this if there is indeed, something better for me out there.
With the year coming to an end, with my high school life reaching its final chapter and with everything else that has happened in between, there's a lot of letting-gos to do. It's not easy but it has to be done.
And God-willing, this is the right thing to let go off.