LIVE in the NOW!

Maarten van der Weijden, a warrior of his own

Beijing Olympics 2008 has already come to an end. What caught my attention the most about it wasn't Michael Phelps staggering 8 golds or Usain Bolt's tremendous world records but rather it was Dutchman Maarten van der Weijden's gold medal victory in the 10KM open water marathon that left me amazed.



He was diagnosed with leukemia in 2001 but that didn't stop him from winning. He said the leukemia has taught him to think step-by-step and patience because when you are lying in a hospital bed with pain and agony, the last thing you want to think about is what will become of tomorrow.



And that's when it hit me right in the head. We, sometimes worry too much about what would happened in the next day, years and decades to come that we forget to live in that particular moment. Stop worrying too much about tomorrow because tomorrow will never come if we don't live through today so take each second and day as it comes and make the best out of it.



Only if you truly live in the 'NOW' moment can you have a memorable past and a beautiful future.

Avril Lavigne's cancellation: What the....???

I can't believe they have cancelled Avril Lavigne's concert. And it was cancelled on the basis of it being inappropriate as the concert will fall during the nation's independence period. Like what the......???

Does going to Avril's concert make us less Malaysians and less patriotic? Does listening to her 'When Your Gone' make us less ethical? Does practicing freedom of music and arts make us take bribes, steal and kill others?

This is a democratic country where the people have the rights to the basic civil liberty. These people who cancelled the concert didn't even bother about the majority voice who wants the concert to go on. There are bigger worries that these people should look into like the increasing number of drug addicts, Mat Rempits and murderers out on the street. But no, they prefer to stick their noses into unnecessary matters.

Please, just give us some space to breathe and live on this democratic land we called, Malaysia.

I LOVE KL!! (turkish video shooting)

Welcome to our wonderful city, Kuala Lumpur (in Orchid Garden)

High up at Lake Garden

My beautiful, wonderful Turkish sisters

Lotus life

In front of National Mosque

Just came back from Kuala Lumpur for my 'music video shooting'. Can you imagine I was walking around the city in my high heels for 4 hours straight so we could get perfect shots of me. But it was an interesting experience as well as an eye opener for me. I never actually cared about the beauty of KL. To me it was just a city where I got to know since the day I was born.

But my Turkish sisters were in awe at practically everything they saw. They went 'Ohh, cok guzel ya!' (oooo, very beautiful!) at the lush greenery of the Lake Garden, the magnificent architecture of the National Mosque, the beauty of orchids found in the Orchid Garden and they were even in awe at the cuteness of little Malaysian children.

That was when I took a step back and looked around at what KL has to offer. Too many times we take things for granted. I only got to realize and appreciate the beauty of Kuala Lumpur through the eyes of the foreigners. It opened my eyes to the real beauty of the city of Kuala Lumpur.

And now the Turks would be able to see the same thing once the video is being aired on their TV.

turkish singing...again!

Few weeks ago, a Turkish national TV, Samanyoluhaber contacted my Turkish teacher and wanted the Malaysian participants, me and Sakinah to sing a few songs for their Ramadhan program. Sakinah is singing a few part of the 'Asma ul-Husna' while I have to sing 2 Turkish songs, Sahit Olsun and Seni Anlatamam.

Jeez. Just when I thought my Turkish days are over, they keep running after me! So today I began the recording of the songs at my home. It took me 5 hours and probably 20 trial runs before getting the perfect vocal and singing. You have no idea how tiring it was.

And tomorrow, we would be recording the music video in KLCC where the whole of Turkey will get to see the beauty of Kuala Lumpur.

Looks like I have a future to be a Turkish singer. LOL

P/S Ashiqin ngan Alia, tak payah nak mengada minta a copy of the singing tau? I'm not gonna give it to you girls ;P

Let Him Go

My heart hammered in pain,

As his shadow is here again,

I thought he was long gone,

But popped came his icon,

Damn I was wrong!

As the old memories and pain came along.

People changed,

I changed,

Maybe not for the better,

I seem torn and battered,

Like a woman fighting alone in a war,

Her anger and the monster deep inside roar,

Searching for her true identity,

While avoiding self-pity.

Let him go,

I watch him slip away,

My clear thoughts I could no longer convey,

Let him go,

To be with someone more of his kind,

Someone more refined.

This is goodbye,

And I say it with a sigh.

To let go is to not regret the past but to grow and live for the future.

Happy Sweet 16 Mimsy!

We threw a surprise Sweet 16 birthday party for Mimi at the Eden in the Curve. She wasn't her usual self the morning of the day so I hoped the party did cheer her up.

Thank you Mimi for being the lovely, awesome friend you are. You always make me laugh with your funny, random laughs and I will cherish our friendship for the years to come. Cheers girl!!

Happy Bday MIMI!!

A beginning to a wonderful journey of 16 years of life

Dinner!

Friends are forever

Girls love mirror

the lost of trust and faith

It's funny how sometimes we are not what we appear to be. 16 years of life have shown me just how many double-faced friends there are. I can't help to wonder who is hiding behind masks and lying underneath blankets of anonymity and who is not. I used to have blind faiths as in believing and trusting everyone around me. Because I know faith and trust is what keep friendships and families together and with trust comes hope which keeps us going in life.

But I should have known better....When surrounded with people who offer you nothing more than 'artificial friendships' blind faith is the last thing to do. It hurts to know that their genialities are just facades when you actually trust and treasure they're so-called friendships.

It's hard for me to put in trust and faith on others from now except for the true friends that have stayed true and family that has stayed loyal.

A heartbreaker :(

Had a movie date with my girlfriends today (Alia, Nunu and Anis) in my own humble home. We watched the critically-acclaimed movie, the Notebook. Yea, yea I know the movie was an old movie but 4 of us can be a bit 'ketinggalan zaman' at times but it was never too late to spend an afternoon together with your besties catching up on old movies, was it? And that was exactly what we did today. The movie was pretty good though nothing really excellent about it.

It was all about how whatever happens you will be destined to your soul mate even if you are separated from him by land or sea. You don't have to chase for love. If it's meant to be, it will look after you.

And Avril Lavigne is coming to town!! I was practically jumping with joy when I read the news piece in the Star about a month ago. Anyone who knows me well would know that Avril Lavigne is a big favourite of mine. Alia and I made a promise back when we were in Form 1 that if Avril Lavigne were to have a concert in Malaysia, we would go together. And we almost did except that my parents are not allowing me to go to the concert that I have been waiting for the last 4 years of my life. Boo-hoo! How heartbreaking is that? :((

Alia did say if she could kidnap me on the night of the concert so we can go together, she would. Oh girl, please do that. I'll be waiting for ya ;)